I have been doing too much and still not getting enough done. Money stuff is finally sorting itself out. I have started substitute teaching at private schools which is pretty easy and fun. I really only have time to do it one day a week though and I haven't been able to tell my new boss that yet. I don't want her to think I'm not interested, that is just really all the time I have for it. I am coaching my first official improv team this Tuesday. I am excited and nervous. I feel bad that people are paying me to coach but I need to get over that. I know I am a good teacher and coach I just need to allow myself to be confident and take ownership over my abilities. It has been a really difficult couple of months, with lots of self-questioning when it comes to improv. I shrink and hide when I feel criticized or judged. It is a self-fulfilling prophesy. When I allow other people to dictate how good I am at something I love, I am in essence giving up.
I have so much positive stuff to look forward to when it comes to improv. Tender Nightmare is shaping up to be a really fun troupe. I love working with everyone on it and think adding new people can only help. I am also excited to do two-person shows with Valerie and Rachel and work with Lisa on something. There are so many talented and kind people to work with. It is overwhelming and exhilarating. I feel like I am being more proactive about my improv than I have been in a long time. I know what I want and I am going for it. I love playing and want to keep doing it no matter where or how.
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