I forgot I was trying to do this. oh well. Lately, I have been missing a lot of people who live too far away from me. I really want to build a bubble city where we can all live together and be happy. We just need to move all of our jobs and lives to the same place. Austin is pretty awesome guys. I wish i could have the brownstone apartment feeling here. I would never get any work done though. Maybe it is good we all live far apart.

breathing in

I just gave my two weeks notice at McBeth, via email. Oh well, we can't all be perfect. Baby steps.

christmas on a submarine

I need a break, but the frantic part of me never wants to take one. Maybe I just need to hibernate for a bit.
Everybody, look at me! I am overwhelmed and talking about it on the internet!
I wish realizing what a luxury it is to have the time and energy to obsess about oneself was enough to change it. Perspective only gets you so far. On a slightly less solipsistic note, I really feel like Elana and I are making progress. In some ways, a day with her feels like a week. The range of emotions we both go through is insane, but I am really enjoying the process of us figuring each other out. We are building our own common language and there is something incredibly exciting and thrilling about that. The semiotics and lit. geek in me is digging it to the max. I just wish i could do that everywhere, with everyone. Let's all build the new words together!

the people all call her alaska

trying to decide how to feel about today. The Pretenders have come back into my life and I'm not going to deny how much I love it. I am finally enjoying reading again. This is big. I was starting to worry that I was a philistine (specifically in reference to Jeff Daniels character's description of the word in the Squid and the Whale. Rent it or borrow it from me). I haven't been really into a book in about six months and finally I am. Iris Murdoch's, A Severed Head. It isn't perect but it is interesting me. It is actually reminding me a lot of Saul Bellow or at least More Die of Heartbreak. It's faster paced but it is dealing with a lot of the same issues. Maybe I just like books that are almost exclusively conversations or musings about relationships. I would put Women in Love in this category too. This probably says a lot about my improv. I should start reading spy novels or something.

LEwar

I am really enjoying Le war on twitter. I just wish Levar Burton would not be afraid of it and would fight back. I feel weird feeling like Michael Ian Black is my friend. I should not know what he had for breakfast, but I love that i do. This is him choosing to publish information on a public forum. I do the same thing and he could technically follow me too, if he chose to, but it still feels a little stalker like. maybe that is why im starting this blog, as penance for stalking pseudo-celebrities on Twitter. I also need to write more, sketch is helping, but I am still rusty and want to write things other than dialogue.

I had a lot of fun in North Carolina. I hate coming back to reality after suspending it for awhile though. My reality isn't even bad, I just like living in vacation mode a lot and think I could do it for a really long time without getting bored. This is why I can't wait to become a Golden Girl: Permanent Vacation. Not getting any real alone time for three days also made me realize how much time I normally spend alone. I like alone time and even need it, and probably would have gone a little nutty with another day of complete togetherness, but sometimes it's nice to be surrounded by people all the time and make decisions as a group. I guess what I really need is a dog or a boyfriend or maybe I just need to interact with my roommates more.