plans are stupid

So my grand plan to only teach acting and writing classes has blown up in my face. It has been a frustrating week accepting that but I think I have taken enough deep breaths and am ready to figure things out again. I am still teaching 6 acting classes which is pretty great. I might still get to teach a creative writing class but I'm not too hopeful after they scheduled me for a class that doesn't fit with my schedule. I want it to work out because it would be a really great job, but I'm not sure that it will. I'm continuing to apply for other part-time jobs and hopefully at least one more thing will work out. It has taken so much work to put these jobs together and I am still so short, but I do still believe it will have its benefits in the end. I love what I'm doing. I love my actors and how excited they are. I have more time to write and improvise and act. This is what I wanted. I just need to take advantage of it even when I'm stressed about money.

I am excited about the possibility of teaching a comedy dance class. I think it will be a really fun and different way to explore my acting and improv skills and it will be a good work out. I've gotten a lot of positive feedback about it so I think I am going to pursue it somewhat seriously. Make a few lesson plans/routines and see what happens from there.

I am also going to keep trying to make corporate workshop sales happen. It scares me to pursue something so contrary to my skill set (I am not a natural sales person) but it helps that the product is something I really believe in (Improv!) and I honestly do think improv is a valuable skill for anyone to develop.

I know I will figure things out but I just want this stressful part to be over. I have been living in schedule flux (will classes make? will Badgerdog find a teaching placement for me? etc.) for over a month now. I had this moment of calm when I got all of these jobs and it has been slowly eroding away with schedule and budget problems to reveal the fear that I will not have enough money to live. I am being dramatic. I will figure it out.

This is such a boring entry. sorry. Oh wait no one reads this. secret blog!